1/2 i saw the ask you answered abt jeremy being afraid of thunderstorms and… i have this headcanon (stemming from ryan’s weird and wild irl past) that fahc ryan just. has the worst luck with storms. tornadoes, hurricanes, terrible thunderstorms, you name it he’s almost died in it. including getting struck by lightning once, which left its mark in some extensive scarring and some neurological issues — and also what he calls a healthy wariness of storms (and what the others call panic attacks)

sorcererinslytherin:

2/2 so battle buddies with their completely rational fears of thunderstorms bonding over their shared jumpiness at the first crack of thunder, hanging out together in the penthouse during bad ones, helping each other over their fears —ryanthepowerbottomguy

I’m so here for this. I spend too much time on Ryan’s streams so I know quite a lot about Ryan’s real life messed up past and I’d imagine his bad luck with storms carries over into the FAHC.

I just sort of think FAHC Ryan doesn’t really like loud noises. He tolerates them, based on his job, but loud crashes aren’t something he finds comforting like, say, Michael would. He thinks they’re disorienting and frightening. Except, he’s good at hiding them.

The others would have asked about his lightning scars, among others, but despite loving them he’s pretty clammed up about parts of his past (and really how would he explain an accidental lightning strike?). 

The thing with Ryan is that he shows fear by closing up and getting really guarded. So the others, especially at first, don’t realize he doesn’t like thunderstorms. They just think the Vagabond is being his usual self – cold and stoic – and they don’t push despite what he really wants is comfort and affection and distraction. Later on, after they become a couple and start to understand Ryan’s inability to vocalize his distress, they bully him into affection that eventually gets him to open up and come to them when he’s scared.

But he doesn’t admit he’s scared of storms until Jeremy comes around. Jeremy’s presence – among hundreds of other bright spots in their life – validates his fear. Ryan notices Jeremy’s fear almost as soon as he feels his own, the very first thunderstorm they have when they’re in the same space. He offers comfort in the best way he knows – a video game controller and a distraction. 

Eventually its easy to just …. slide into that warmth and affection together. It’s not uncommon to see Jeremy and Ryan basically on top of each other in bed during a thunderstorm – they cling to each other while doing other things, Jeremy gaming on a DS or on his laptop, Ryan reading, cuddled together with headphones, ignoring the storm. Offering each other wordless comfort. 

On a job its harder, but they watch each other’s back. They’re attuned to the panic of the other now, knows when it’s going to happen. Can wait for it and help if it grows bad enough to potentially compromise the mission.

The battle buddies are a force to be reckoned with, when they work together. When they conquer their fear, they’re stronger than ever.

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